Long Live Us

My clock reads 9:03 this very moment, which means that All Time Low would be playing in SMX Convention Center any moment now, making thousands of fans jump and dance and scream their lungs out as they watch the ever so wild and ever so naughty Alex Gaskarth, Jack Barakat, Zack Merrich and Rian Dawson perform on stage. Which also means that I will not be there to witness one of the bands I love the most live AGAIN, after countless times of All Time Low visits in the city. Which also means that I am here in my room, choosing to torture myself by listening to their albums, breaking my heart despite the fact that it has been broken quite a few times now. What a good way to hurt yourself, Patricia. 

What hurts the most about not being in Bazooka Rocks II right now is the fact that A Rocket To The Moon will be playing here in Manila for the last time as a band since they disbanded just this summer. Their set will be the last of twelve bands performing for fourteen hours today, and I could just imagine how heartbreaking the aura would be. I imagine myself in the venue, among the crowd, probably somewhere at the back because I wouldn't enjoy trying to squeeze my way to the front and because I enjoy having a better view despite the distance rather than fighting for space in front, singing my heart along to their songs, and then when they play "Ever Enough", "While The World Let Go" "Baby Blue Eyes" "On Your Side" or most probably any song, I would feel the sadness and it would dawn on me that it's going to be my first and last time I'm going to see them live. If ever I see them again, Nick would be solo, and Andrew, Justin and Eric would be playing in different bands. And then that's going to be the whole aura of SMX: it dawns on everybody that it's going to be the last Rocket set we could hear and it's going to be heartbreaking. And despite the fact, we will choose to sing and dance and enjoy the last fucking hour we'd see them on stage, with tears falling from our eyes and with our heart silently being crushed. But earth to Patricia: you're not there, you're here in your room, listening to Somewhere in Neverland, blogging about Bazooka despite not being in Bazooka, and imagining yourself there even when you're not. YOU ARE NOT IN BAZOOKA, PATRICIA, AND THAT IS BREAKING YOUR HEART. It's one thing to see them perform live for the last time, and it's another thing (a more heartbreaking one) to know you won't see them together again. 

I guess the only thing keeping me from completely losing it is the fact that my concert buddy, Paola Collene Isanan Susulin, and I went to the fan party yesterday, August 24, and let it be said that it's one of the best days of my life even though it's not what I exactly wanted had things turned out differently (otherwise, I won't be here blogging about the fan party... I'd be at SMX and tomorrow I'd be blogging Bazooka). It was all planned that day: Paola and I will meet at 10 in the morning at the McDonald's branch in Buendia and we will go straight to the fan party and be there extra early. But there had been a problem and things almost got cancelled but I'm happy that we got to continue our plan and at around 2 in the afternoon, we were at MOA.

When we arrived, there was no band yet on stage. Paola and I decided to buy a cartolina and a marker so we have a banner to raise when things get wild, and when we came back, we were just in time to witness Tonight Alive on stage!!! They were the only band who had a acoustic session for the fan party and goodness gracious Jenna was really beautiful. She performed "Listening" and "Safe and Sound" and one new song from their new album I haven't listened to yet. 

Tonight alive!! Picture from Paola's phone.

After, Paola and I went to take advantage of the free photo booth:

After having our pictures taken, Paola and I went to McDonald's for a quick snack and I was finally able to satisfy my craving of Shake Shake Fries!!! YES!!! And then we lined up for the free body paint booth, and while we were in line we saw Red Jumpsuit Apparatus and We Came As Romans. 100 lucky fans were able to hug them and those who bought a copy of their album had it signed by them as well! Lucky people! (I don't have pictures of them from my phone, there are a few from my camera but my adaptor seem to be malfunctioning at the moment sooo...) Paola and I weren't able to take a picture of our body paints but I had "Wild & Free" on my right wrist and "Long Live Us" on my left while Paola had "A Rocket to the Moon" at the back of her palm (what do you call that part haha) and "All Time Low" on the whole of her lower arm. 

After having our body paints, Paola and I went outside the area and at the side of the stage and then we had ourselves squeezed while the guards were preparing a passage way for when the band comes out and goes out of the mall, they were in a line holding hands just to bounce us out but Paola and I managed to get so close to the band members of We Came As Romans although we're both not fans (hehe). 

After, we readied ourselves for the coming of A Rocket To The Moon! We already reserved a place at the side of the stage and I was in front hehe and I stood over the bakal for a better view. And then suddenly everybody was screaming and before I knew it ARTTM was in front of me and I was just SCREAMIIIING BECAUSE HUHU NICK AND ERIC AND JUSTIN AND ANDREW!!!!!! And then Paola appeared from behind and she got hold of Nick's arms and Nick shooed her away HAHA but she doesn't care she had Nick's germs hehehe! Huhu I was so overwhelmed when I saw them in front of me and then suddenly the crowd began singing Baby Blue Eyes and of course we sang along and they were just so happy to see the crowd singing. And then the meet and greet began and I was just there staring while all these lucky fans get to meet and hug and take a picture with them but it's fine because at least I get to see them! And I literally just stared at them and then ever enough played and seriously it was so heartbreaking I was singing and I was looking at them and sadness filled me. AND THIS WAS JUST THE MEET AND GREET. But seriously every time one of them looks at us and waves we are all AHHHHHHHHHH. And then after all the meet and greets, one fan proposed to Halvo hehe it was so cute and then the fan was crying and I forgot what song was in the background but I seriously couldn't hold it anymore, hehe I teared up a bit. But you guys... I SAW THEM OKAY I SAW THEM!!! 

Paola's selfie with Nick Santino

My selfie with Nick Santino!!!

After about ten minutes of rest (nakakapagod tumili guys), All Time Low arrived!!! I WAS SCREAMING BECAUSE ALEX WAS IN A BEANIE AND OH GOD I FINALLY SAW ALEX LIVE!!! AND THEN THEY WERE ON STAGE AND I HEARD ALEX'S VOICE AND AHHHHHHHHH <3  AND WE WERE ALL SINGING THERAPY AND STAY AWAKE AND THEN WHILE I WAS WATCHING THEM MAKE CRAZY POSES WITH THE FANS I WAS HAVING GOOSEBUMPS. AS IN. BY SIMPLE SEEING THEM IN FLESH AND SO WILD ON STAGE. AHHH I REALLY LOVE SEEING THEM GO CRAZY LIKE THAT AT THAT MOMENT I CAN'T HOLD MY FEELS ANYMORE I WAS SOOOO HAPPY. And then occasionally Rian would wave at us and when Alex looked at us he looked at me YES ME I SAW IT HE LOOKED AT ME AND AHH I was screaming and I must have looked really stupid standing on bars and holding my camera and screaming but what the hell. My heart is happy. 

ALL TIME LOW!!!! YEP THAT'S ALEX IN HIS BEANIE HUHU SO GWAPO <3

When their meet and greet was almost over, Paola and I went near the CR because we have been informed by the kind guard that that's where they enter and exit the mall. We went to explore the passage way and the kuya janitor there informed us that the door leads to where their van is. And so with this knowledge, Paola and I positioned ourselves near the CR and I was just positioned before the bouncer and then when they were approaching, I WAS SO CLOSE TO ALEX HUHU AS IN SUPER CLOSE!! I WAS HERE                     HE WAS HERE AND HE WAS SERIOUSLY LOOKING AT ME WHILE WAVING. AT ME. I SWEAR IT WAS ME AND HE WAS SMILING AND GDI I WAS SO CLOSE. AND THEN WHEN THEY WERE PASSING THE SECRET HALLWAY, Paola and I ran outside the mall to catch them before they entered the van and I was again closed by the bouncer huhu and I got SOOOO CLOSE TO ALEX AGAIN!!!

\   -    /

\ - my hand
- - the guard
/ - alex's hand

He was almost reaching for my hand and we were jutt so close and he was smiling and waving at me again and ahhh my fangirl heart couldn't anymore!!!!!!!!!

Huhu seriously this made me a little less sad that I wasn't able to attend Bazooka Rocks II. And just an hour ago they announced that there would be an 8123 tour!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OH YES!!!!!!!!! THIS SERIOUSLY MADE ME LESS SAD BECAUSE IF THEY DO NOT CHANGE THE LINE UP, ARTTM, THE MAINE, THIS CENTURY AND BRIGHTEN WILL BE HERE AND AHHHHHHHH IT'S A DREAM LINE UP COME TRUE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WHEN I HEARD ABOUT THIS TOUR THIS SUMMER I WAS LIKE 8123 IN MANILA PLEASE AND NOW IT'S TRUE OMG I AM ALREADY SO STOKED FOR JANUARY 2013!!!!!!! AHHHH YES I AM SEEING MY BANDS TOGETHER!!! HAPPY FANGIRL RIGHT NOW <3 <3 <3 I AM NOT GOING TO MISS THIS!!!!

More pictures from yesterday:

"huhu brf huhu"

Another selfie with Nick Santino!!!

Selfie with Jenna!!! Hihi pretty gurl pretty voice :3

FOREVER CONCERT BUDDY FANGIRL BUDDY

It's already 11:35 in my clock, look how long it took me to write this blog post! Well at least something in my life is worth blogging. Right now, ARTTM is playing and it doesn't hurt as much anymore. I hope to see them again in January!!!

I leave you with a line from the song where this blog post's title is from because I really love this line and this has been stuck in my head for quite a while: "Long live the reckless and the brave, I don't think I wanna be saved, my song has not been sung." :-)